Proud of Feeling Sexy

I feel proud of how sexy I feel.

I love it, enjoy it and work for it. It is not always easy; we live in a society where, unfortunately, showing how sexually empowered you are can be tricky. For me, it has been a wonderful but bumpy road. I discovered my body, my curves, my mind, but I also found my limits and how they can be threatened by other people.

I believe in doing what you feel is right for you and not for others, for how it will do YOU good in the moment and in the long run. It is a very sexy idea in principle, but it is hard to maintain a straight mind sometimes, hard to feel sexy every day, and not listen to those that don't agree with how you behave, think, or inspire.

If you are reading this, then there is a chance you have read some of my work, and you know that I am all for sexy, sex, and self-love. From articles to pictures in underwear, I have explored the best way to be comfortable with sexiness and my body. But it is unfortunately not as easy as it can seem.

Funny enough, I started this sexy journey by posting a picture in underwear and being outraged at how people reacted to this picture.

However, today people seem to be more used to seeing this, not necessarily agreeing, but understanding that this is my thing: how I empower myself and how I aspire to inspire others. I really appreciate that. I don't know if this is because of what I post, write or think, but I like that some people's perspectives have shifted.

Still, I have two things to express, and I like to share them in case it has happened to you.

When I was fired a few months ago, I was devasted; I wrote about it and got beautiful responses and conversations out of it. However, I talked to some people that I admired professionally. They said that in their opinion, I was fired because of "the very promiscuous" pictures I posted, because of showing too much and how this might affect the companies' image.

At that moment, I was so shocked that I decided to archive all of my "sexy" pictures. But it didn't really sit well with me. Why should I be hiding something that makes me insanely proud? Why should I change the very thing that inspires some people (and outrages others)? Why was I hiding all this work I've done for the past year. To get a job? To that, I say: the job was not for me. Writing, inspiring, and telling my story is what I need, what I am good at. I respect that every company has different views on how we represent ourselves on social media, but should we censor ourselves?

First of all, it's the 21st century. With everything going on, I feel we are entirely free to post, show, write and delete what we want, not because it might be difficult for someone to understand. If you are not offending someone, you should do you, do what feels good for you. Second, the same way I ask for respect, I understand that it is difficult for some people to see a "good and educated girl" posting this content. It might not really go with said people's values.

Two weeks ago, I had this same conversation with myself and realized that I wanted to keep going with that content, so I unarchived them. I could not feel more proud. Proud of the picture of my beautiful ass, of how amazing I look in lingerie, proud of making others proud, giving them a chance to see a big girl showing skin, and feel the exact same freedom I do to express themselves. Our ability to be free is truly underrated, but at the same time, it is the most beautiful thing we can discover. And yes, some of these pictures or articles can be interpreted as provocative. Yes, I have received some very sexual comments from random people. It is sometimes challenging, but I know that my intention is to inspire, not provoke. And I love that. I love feeling myself, feeling sexy, being undoubtedly me.

If you made it up to this part, thank you for being here, understand and read. I love you.

L