So freaking happy

Do you ever just wake up and against all odds feel happy?

I went out last night, had a fight with someone I really care about, drank, felt ugly, then felt pretty, got drunk, danced the night away, slept four hours, and had to wake up for work at 7:30 am.

Yet I am undeniably happy.

I can’t shake the feeling.

Why’s that?

Well, it’s not all flowers and sunshine but I finally love myself, fully, truly.

I do feel bad or not like myself sometimes (it wouldn't be normal not to) but I love Lorenza, I love spending time with her, in her thoughts, and in her mind.

I recently got a job so that makes me very happy, it makes me eager towards the future and the countless opportunities it holds. I have an amazing roommate, amazing friends, I’ve met beautiful people and the sun is shining.

This might all be too cheesy but I find it is important to share our happiness, push through the bad moments, the uncertainty, and anxiety. Because it’s not all black or white, it’s not all happiness or all sadness. Recognize the good in your life and deal with the bad, it’s there for a reason, to make you grow and learn.

Two weeks ago I thought my time in Paris had ended, I didn’t feel sexy, I was a bit angry and I was stress eating. I felt uncertain about the future.

Today I am happy at my new job, meeting new people, and forever grateful for the life I’m leading.

Feeling sexy? Yes

Everyday? I try, but it’s okay not to feel it daily, we are not perfect.

But feeling happy is important, and whenever you do, be grateful, appreciate it, love it.

Love,

L