25 and Ready!

I'm turning 25 today.

And it's been weighing on me for a while. I don't know why the fact of being closer to 30 or just living a quarter of a century. But I am nervous, I don't know what to feel.

I can't shake out the anxiety of turning 25. Why is that? I've been thinking about it for a while. Some might think I'm exaggerating “you're only 25, chill”. But to them, I say no. There are many times in our lives that we have these little crises, we are simply a bit lost, unable to see clearly or make decisions. For me, it's the fact of turning 25 and having to grow up. For others, it can be 15, 30, or even 60. We are all living through our own anxieties, and it's okay, it's okay to feel anxious or sad, to hide a bump in the beautiful road that life is.

In these last few months, before turning 25, I have had many changes. First of all, I finished university (which took me forever), and it really felt like the end of an era. Then I got fired from my new job (that I thought I was rocking), which only lasted for about three weeks. Then, Alex- my compadre, my roommate, my half-and I decided to stop living together. The fact of not waking up and seeing him every day is hard, and I know the separation in a few weeks will be even worse; how's that for a significant change? So that takes me to not having where to live and frenetically looking for a new place (obviously as close to Alex as possible). And finally, I let go of someone I love. And it hurt.

I've hit my fair share of bumps during the first half of my 20s and looking back, I know that I could not be here if it wasn't for those bumps.

I've been through so many situations that I don't know what to expect. I feel I should have a more established life by now.

However, when I look back to my early 20s, going through a depression, an eating and anxiety disorder, and still making it to 25, I kind of smile to myself and congratulate the old Lorenza for getting me here and being healed.

So yeah, I am a bit sad about turning 25, but im ecstatic for the rest of my life.

So whether you are turning 25, changing jobs, leaving someone, or starting a new chapter in your life, I support you. I understand, and it's okay to be afraid; you're not alone. Many life changes will challenge who we are, how we feel, and the perception of ourselves. But it is essential (as hard as it seems) to trust the path you're walking. Every situation, every difficult moment, and every incredible moment are here to make you who you are. It is easy to be afraid of the uncertainty the future holds. But be brave, trust yourself, love yourself and celebrate your life. It is a beautiful one.

From my heart to yours,

L